Author Event: Molly Stillman

Page 158 Books is excited to welcome author Molly Stillman to celebrate the release of her memoir, If I Don’t Laugh, I’ll Cry: How Death, Debt, and Comedy Led to a Life of Faith, Farming, and Forgetting What I Came into
This Room For
--out March 26th.

In this laugh-out-loud and heartfelt memoir, If I Don’t Laugh, I’ll Cry: How Death, Debt, and Comedy Led to a Life of Faith, Farming, and Forgetting What I Came into
This Room For, Molly Stillman shares her unforgettable story of growing up the daughter of a Vietnam Army nurse, losing her mother at age 17, squandering an unexpected quarter- of-a-million-dollar inheritance in less than two years, and pursuing her dream of being on Saturday Night Live but ending up on a farm instead. This journey of faith, hope, resilience, and the power of laughter unfolds in an engaging and relatable narrative that resonates with readers from all walks of life.

Molly’s mother, Lynda Van Devanter, served on the front lines as an Army nurse during the Vietnam War, leaving an indelible mark on history with her bestselling memoir, Home Before Morning, which was the first nonfiction account of the Vietnam War from a Woman’s perspective every published. Tragically, Lynda’s life was cut short after an eight- year battle with an autoimmune disorder linked to her exposure to Agent Orange. Molly, only seventeen at the time, faced the daunting challenge of navigating life without her mother’s guidance.

One early reader noted, “Molly’s book seamlessly picks up where her mother’s left off.” At the age of twenty-one, Molly found herself unexpectedly inheriting a quarter of a million dollars from her mother’s estranged family’s estate. What followed was a tumultuous journey marked by “retail therapy” and a series of financially foolish decisions, resulting in Molly being broke with over $36,000 in credit card debt within two years. Shame, guilt, and embarrassment became constant companions.

Driven by the aspiration of landing a job with Saturday Night Live, Molly used humor as a coping mechanism to mask the pain and brokenness within. Believing that projecting joy on the outside would eventually translate to inner happiness, she soon discovered the harsh reality of depression, loneliness, and alienation from those closest to her. But an unlikely call with a compassionate credit counselor, meeting the spreadsheet-loving man who eventually became her husband, and a surprising visit to a church started her on a path that changed everything.

MOLLY STILLMAN is the host of the Can I Laugh on Your Shoulder? podcast and a sought-after speaker. The lifestyle blog she started in 2007, Still Being Molly, is a community for women who love ethical style, clean beauty, parenting, funny stories, and serving in their communities. Her deep passion lies in inspiring women to know they were created on purpose, with a purpose, and for a purpose. Molly lives with her husband John, children Lilly and Amos, and various and sundry animals on a small farm in Durham, North Carolina. She loves Jesus a whole lot, drinks too much Diet Coke, and eats a lot of Chipotle burritos. You can find her on the internets at

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Event date: 
Thursday, May 2, 2024 - 6:00pm
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415 S Brooks Street
Wake Forest, NC 27587
If I Don't Laugh, I'll Cry: How Death, Debt, and Comedy Led to a Life of Faith, Farming, and Forgetting What I Came Into This Room for By Molly Stillman Cover Image
ISBN: 9781400243273
Availability: On Our Shelves Now (Updated at the end of every day)
Published: Thomas Nelson - March 26th, 2024